Reflections of life

Been "years" since I posted my last post and I can sadly say that life is getting meaningless.. Always at a point of stage, we all should look back and reflect on our life and see what went right and where went wrong..

For my own, its really going in the wrong direction.. As most of you should know, I am 23 this year.. Living as the youngest of 4 siblings is not a blessing as most of you might think of it to be.. When I was born, I have a gap of 12 years with my before-me brother and a 18 years gap with eldest sister.. Growing up in such a family made me mature faster and learnt to see the world in another perspective.. I never understand the way others lead their life.. By the age of 14, I am left alone to explore the world of adolescence.. The friends I made along the way was of the same mindset, everyone was of the same mindset.. Till a younger generation came in.. I remembered the first day of school when I was Sec 4.. The moment I walked into school, I saw Sec 1 playing "Catching".. I was like.. What's the world becoming! As the day goes by, they became more childish and playful, and soon the lower sec seems to become primary school students..

When I was in sec 1, the popular stuff to do was magic-card games, basketball, board games, computer games, actively in CCA.. Never was there any act of childish mischief, nor "catching". Soon I discover that those who are born at 90's have this generation gap with the 80's.

Anyway, lets side track a little. The reason why I am writing this post s due to a Facebook video i saw from a friend of mine. Its done by a guy who spend 30 years on games and now he is under achieving and divorced. This lead to me to think of the times I spent on Tv and maplestory. In his video, he mentioned stuff like.. what's the point of getting to level 80 in a game.. if you take the time you spend there and make use of it by spending more time with friends, family and exercise, we would be different.. Its true how technology has taken over our life, how facebook have changed the life of everyone around us.. Back in my days, there was only MIRC and Friendster which was just a page and a chat room for use to get to socialise.. It was not as addictive as Facebook.. Facebook has become a addiction to most people, commenting.. posting pictures.. playing the games there.. chatting there.. but once again, back to the ultimate question.. what do you benefit from it after all the "fun"? When you are 60, will you remember what you commented today? I used to watch a lot of tv too.. Chasing drama night after night.. then one day, I went for a camp with lasted 3 days 2 nights.. and ever since then.. I forgot what is tv.. Why are the people of today chasing after tv, facebook and games? I really wish to get out of this vicious cycle but how can I motivate myself when I turn to my left and right, I see everyone doing the same old thing!

haiz.. kicking myself is not going to working.. its an addiction we all have to put an end to it..