Today, we had a very serious talk about our lives as a partner, spouse and parent. It is clear that we are two very different type of people trying to work things out, or rather at least one of us is.
You picked a very interesting question to start the ball rolling. What special ability or special power you would like to have? We both chose the same special power, control of time, but express it use very differently. I said, I would like this ability so that I could go back in time to change things and make things better, but you would use it to end things.
We have been together for 15 years and been through many ups and downs, and we once promised to work things out together and that's what kept us going for 15 years. Today, it is no longer this promise that keeps us going but our kids.
You mentioned that our current lifestyle is like kinship, no longer partners who are in love. I agree. While I tried to put in the effort to, I realized that it did not bring us closer and eventually you distanced and built a wall between us.
While we continue to live our lives together, you made it very clear that it would be just for the kids and would want nothing more. I know we would never go back to how we were in the early days but you were firm that you did not want a new beginning too.
It seems like the hardship you went through as we worked things out with our first child has changed you. 6 months of hardship that I put you through was enough to break the foundation of our 15 years of relationship. To be fair, as you mentioned a pile up of other series of events over the years, that create the negativity in you.
Today's session definitely was in-depth and we touch on many topics. Many of which made me realized that you changed long time ago. Going on dates, spending time together on special occasions, go the extra mile for each other no longer meant the same importance as it did many years ago.
We left the session, but I felt that I left a part of me behind.
To end off.. You stopped playing the role of a partner, never really played the role as a wife and decided to just be a parent together.
