Been a long long time..

Its about 2 weeks since my last entry in my blog.. Getting quiet in here isn't it? haha.. But my life is still as busy as usual.. haha.. Finally, a long weekend to write all the things that I want to say..

Recently, I realised that 3 very important ladies and 3 very important buddies in my life had faced difficulties in theirs.. My precious Patricia, Sister NIG and Dbl 'O' GF MariSq.. Rick, Jian And Tze..

Lets start off with my baby girl,
I must say, she is the most understand gf yet.. Since my break up with my ex, I have kinda turn into a party animal.. For the past one year, I had lots of fun in the club.. Ever since, I am attached to Patricia, clubbing has already become meaningless and all the fun seems to have disappeared.. Maybe it was a tool to escape the fact of loneliness.. And with Patricia coming into my life, the loneliness is now filled with love.. So to all the friends out there, I decided to club lesser or even if possible to stop.. Thought she can be understanding, but it wont stop her from worrying.. For those, who has been to the club will know that it isn't really a good place to be in.. So for her happiness and for her to not worry so much about me, I came out with this solution.. As couple, no one would like that other partner to be constantly worrying about the other.. So I hope all of you, my dear friends can understand.. I am not saying that you can't call me out, but maybe lets do something new? Like, supper? Prawn fishing? Chilling out late somewhere more comfortable? haha.. Boring? haha..

2nd, my sister NIG..
Been almost 2 months since I met her.. Finally had the chance to meet up.. Heard that she was facing many issues again, really made me feel sad and sorry for her.. Am happy that we are still close as before.. I remember the feeling when I was going down to meet her.. Was thinking, so long never see each other le.. Don't even know how to react or talk to her anymore.. But all these thinkings were silly.. haha.. Still as close as before! which is a good thing.. Had tcc for dinner and caught a movie together with Marina and had tons of fun in the arcade! Kinda priceless.. Hope all her unsolved issues will be untied soon..

3rd, my dbl O gf..
Saw you cried for the first time my life.. haha.. silly girl.. Am rather glad, you turned to me for comfort.. Made me feel important and part of your life.. Though there are many things that I don't know, but I can feel that you are rather unhappy since you got yourself into your present relationship.. You are brave, I can see it from you.. So brave that you forced your feelings deep in.. But there are times, you need to release them out.. What happen earlier today wasn't the very right thing to do.. Getting pissed off at your friends isn't really what you want, and you know it.. So plsplspls say sorry.. I will always remember this, during our time in poly, you mentioned about a upset period with your ex bf.. You thank me for not asking too much and for not saying, are you ok? Since then, I know you rather choose to handle your feelings yourself then to pour it out.. So like today, I only chose to comfort you and not ask anything about it.. I believe now, you have calmed down, so think about what you have and evaluate what was right and what was wrong.. I remember saying, I cannot make decision for you, I only can suggest or to tell you what I will do, so now I am telling you that when you realise that the person in front of you is a wrong choice, its time to wake up and not to continue dreaming and to fall deeper.. Its a painful process that no one wants to go through, but it will get more painful if you chose to fall deeper.. Do not hope any more for a fairy tale ending, cause I really don't see a happily ever after with him after what he had done.. Cheer up, my best and favourite team member and my one and only dbl O gf.. SMILE!

Now for my brothers,

Derrick,
Am very very very very very happy that you are finally back on home soil.. When you were away a lot of things happened.. Maybe the damaged caused cannot be eased.. But isn't what I really want to say.. I can feel that your family pressure and the motivated you to find a decent school to study in.. Its great and heart warming to see the change in you.. I hope it will be a permanent change.. Study isn't really fun at all.. Frankly, I never like to force myself into books.. So I won't blame you for not studying hard in the past.. But since now you know its importance, its best to keep it in mind forever to keep yourself motivated.. You have what it takes to have a outstanding future.. So do work hard, no matter what you choose to study..

Jian,
I see you trying to grow up fast.. I see you trying to attempt what you never attempt before.. But there is this character in you which make me kinda feel that you are not true to anyone or even to yourself.. Anyway, do take your time to grow and not to rush things through.. You are the most pure in the brotherhood, so pls remain that way..

Tze,
The issue between you and gin seems to be a never ending one.. Chances had been given to you and her to become friends, but you chose otherwise.. Now it had became a stage of no return.. Things is getting more complicated with the new complex relationship which you are in now.. I remember tell you this, don't give people false hope.. I will never know what's on your mind, but I can I say is, the situation that you are in now, is becoming a lot more complicated than it seems.. To end off, just want you to know that even when our brotherhood seems to be unstable, you are still a buddy to me..