你是我的宝贝! 我的! =)

你是我的宝贝! 我的! =)

爱情 是一种非常美丽的事。我过去一直在寻找我的真爱, 今天终於让我找到你了 。

从爱你的那一天, 我的手机会为你24小时开, 在你最需要我的时候可以随时找到我, 因为我爱你, 所以会时时担心你。

我也会很自豪的我告诉的朋友与家人你是我最爱的女人 , 当然并不是时时挂在嘴上, 而是用 一种行动去告诉别人, 你是我最爱的 女人！因为有了你我觉得很骄傲, 很快乐。=)

我也会把除了工作之外的 时间都给你,当然会偶尔和朋友去聚会, 因为我想时时刻刻都看见你。

我也会毫不吝啬的给你物质上的付出, 为你创造终身的惊喜, 因为我觉得所有 辛苦的努力就是为了你的一个微笑。

我也会陪你 一起爬山,看海,看星星,看日落, 因为我知道你渴望这样的浪漫。

我也不会留恋与网络与别的女人眉甜言蜜语, 因为对你我都有说不完的爱, 哪有那心思和别人废话。

我也希望未来每天很辛苦的工作回到家的时候, 会抱着你说“老婆,我回来了” 。因为绝对不会把不快乐带给你！

我也绝对不会忍心背叛你, 无论出于什么样的动机。因为在我眼里, 你是最美,最逗人喜爱的宝贝。

我也会象爱我家人那样爱你的家人, 也会尊重你的亲人和朋友。

因为我真的爱你, 我愿为你牺牲一切。

~Finally! Whoo, almost died trying to write chinese! haha.. Love you.. =)~

My birthday! 2806

Guess what.. This is how I look like when I am 21! haha.. Its the best birthday after 3 years, my baby really understand the meaning of a simple and sweet birthday.. hee..

Woke up very early to save the fall of the balloons.. haha.. I made a surprise for my baby dear.. Actually, its not a surprise but many many surprises haha.. Let me show you the amount of balloons i made..

haha.. Its a lot! The most important ones are the ones which says, PATRICIA I LOVE YOU! hee..

Anyway, lets get back on track.. haha.. Picked my baby up for lunch at Prima Tower.. She was like so shy the moment she board the car.. haha.. So tense and stress.. Anyway, if i were to see her parents too.. I will be worried too.. You know giving a good impression during the first meeting with your dearest's parents is very important.. But I must say, she is loved by all.. I can see my mom smiling throught out the journey.. hee.. Comfirm like my baby de.. haha.. But I must say, she is so not herself today.. haha..

First time seeing her without spectacles, 2nd wearing a dress, 3rd so quiet during the meet the family session.. haha..

After the great lunch.. hee.. nice nice.. She came over my place for her surprises.. Not going to tell all of you what were the surprises cause its classified.. haha.. All I can say, is that its worth all the hard work, time and effort after seeing her expression.. hee.. We caught sassy girl too.. My baby never watch sassy girl before.. Not gonna allow such thing to happen! haha.. Its such a nice show.. MUST WATCH! you know, its like 6 popcorns out of 5.. hee.. Feel so close with my baby throughout the whole show! hee.. Oya.. hee.. Something great happened after the show.. hee.. small lips.. So not going to tell you too.. Sweet Secret..

Too bad everything got to end.. Send her home to put most of her stuff and accompany her to bugis to meet her mom for dinner.. So much of me want to hug her and kiss her goodbye, but I know its better and safer not to.. haha.. Couldn't bear to say goodbye but still got to do it..

~You made my day.. Just by being here on my birthday is the biggest gift I can ever get.. I love all the presents you made and got for me.. Really special and nice.. The best ever.. hee.. Missing you..~

Later on, met my friends for dinner and went DBL O.. Kinda fun.. Received quite a number of presents.. haha.. Thanks all.. If I wasn't that tire from all the basketball training, I think will bring the house down.. haha.. Too bad tire and alcohol don't really mix well..

Actually, during clubbing, my baby sms me that something happen to her mom.. Was very worried about it.. Gave her a call.. Already knowing that baby, must have cried or crying.. It was regarding some family matters.. Which most of us has little control over.. Haiz.. Why must my baby go through so much.. Thank god for sending her to me, cause i will use my love to heal her wounds.. Really hope everything will turn out well.. ~Be strong my baby~

~Really enjoyed the day with you.. Its our 10 days.. Our first sweet secret.. A day i will never forget..~

Bronson

I must say.. am falling deeply in love with you..

Surprise surprise once again.. This time round, its at her school.. haha.. Been rather busy with basketball tournament in camp recently.. So i took a full day off to meet her and to get some stuff for another surprise during my birthday.. Waited for her at the bus stop outside her school.. While waiting was thinking, how will she look like in her yellow uniform.. A colour she hates so much.. haha.. But once again, she is cute no matter what she wears.. CUTE! haha.. She surprised me too.. Handed me a hand written letter.. Her very first letter to me.. hee.. Sweet! S0rry, not gonna tell you guys what she wrote.. But its sweet haha.. =P Went to clementi again! This time was to do 4 things! Having lunch, Topping Ezlink, Getting stationeries and Collection of her parents photos.. haha.. Practically, stared at her having lunch! haha.. Cute Cute Cute Cute.. haha.. I believe this is call crazily in love with someone.. haha.. Now am beginning to love the little things we do, because it gives me the feeling of being a happy couple.. Simple, sweet and beautiful.. Had a very heart to heart talk down at her void deck.. She told me many things about her past.. I was crying inside.. Cause its really a cruel world out there.. And I am sad that it happened to my precious.. But on the bright side, this were the very same things that made her strong and mature today.. After seeing that she is so strong, I just couldn't let my tears flow.. This also when, i truly fell deeply in love with her.. I held her close, trying to make her feel safe and secure.. Letting her know, that its over and done with.. I know she strong, but after all, she is still my precious baby.. hee.. Love the feeling of holding her close.. Baby, I know you will read once I tell you i am done.. So am gonna say, I love you.. =) 900 months is a lot but like I promised, it is now eternal.. Hugs! One more day! haha.. BeBe

Cant believe that i am in love..

Though I am in love, it feels like a bubble.. Ready to burst anything and wake me up from my beautiful dream..

It is so nice being love by someone special and to love that special someone back.. I almost forgotten how was the feeling like.. As most of you would know, my past two relationship was not smooth.. A 4 years relationship which everyone thought will remain forever. came crushing down and a beautiful beginning turn out to be a wrong choice.. There was a time, when I lost faith in love.. I even thought of being single and decided not to hurt anyone any more..

But all started to change when I met my baby, Patricia.. I agree with many, that she is very young.. But I must at the age of 16, she carry a maturity of a lady.. She kind of still behaves like a baby kid.. But that's what I like about her.. When needed she can be understanding and mature, when not, she is herself being like a baby.. I would say, she is perfect.. But like many of you again, will say, no one is perfect.. Yes, I totally agree.. But this time round, I am going to struggle with her in this relationship.. In the past, I gave in for my first, I asked from my 2nd.. Maybe that was why I failed.. So this time round, I am going to struggle.. From what I have learned in life, only through struggles, then will both grow closer.. Not by giving in or asking from..

Really thankful for everything you have done, my baby.. Simply, just by accepting me as a friend on friendster was already such a blessing.. And now, I am able to call you mine, it's like a dream.. A fairy tale that I hope will never end.. Love you.. STUDY HARD!

Our first breakfast today!

Shui Kway! haha.. Didnt know we have common breakfast too! hee.. Tell you more about it later..

Today, I successfully dragged her to Ghim Moh to feel the pain of Tui Na therapy! She suffered a elbow injury and me, has an ankle injury too.. Been doing a lot of running and the training for basketball tournament, so my past injury is back again.. Feel so painful! But its worst during the 'Therapy' haha.. Too bad I didn't bring my camera phone along with me, am sure gonna take down all the funny faces she made during the torture.. haha.. Cute still i must say.. hee..

Then we went to have shui kway after the long battle with pain! haha.. Feel so happy to eat breakfast with her.. I love the feeling of going to the market to have breakfast with my love ones.. hee.. Feel blessed somehow.. hee..

Oya.. My poor baby's big aunt is here to disturb her again! Hope she wont stay too long though.. Haiz, why this kinda thing happen every once a month.. Its such a hassle.. Poor thing! Hugs!

Hee.. had a slow walk back.. hee.. Somehow am still rather shy to hold her close.. Maybe feeling its not the time yet ba.. haha.. But did attempted to when we were crossing the path outside the construction side.. hee.. So worried that the floor is too slippery for her.. So kinda pull her closer and put my hand around her waist.. hee..

Had a nice breakfast with you my dear.. You made my day! Hope many more breakfast to come! hee.. Hugs!

Bebe

hmm.. its a fun day!

I must say today was a rather tiring day.. But its still worth all the effort and energy going down to see my precious baby girl.. Hee.. Woke up at 5am slept at 2am.. Then got to go for basketball training! Its hell.. Can't even really open my eyes! haha.. Kept telling myself that Patricia is here watching me play, so as to keep me motivated.. Finally, time to go back camp! So much of me is trying to reach for the bed.. But, i chose to stay up and go attempt an impossible mission.. Asking for time off during a commanders training day! heehee.. I got it in the end! Rush all the way down to where she was.. Was intending to surprise her at her tournament venue but she was already on her way back! So i appear at her station.. Surprise surprise! haha.. Send her back home! and went for my late lunch or should i say 2nd lunch.. Then got a cute sms from her asking me to accompany her to go to the supermarket! haha.. I love the feeling of us going to ntuc.. So much like young married couples.. hee.. Think i am getting way crazy over her.. haha.. Oya! I missed out something important! She give me a very very special letter or should i say, a toy! haha.. With sweet little words of hers in it.. Feel so close and similar in our thinking about relationship.. Huggies.. Love you for it! Went back to her area after her shopping, had a tough time trying to struggle with her homework.. Shouldn't have brought my psp along.. haha.. But she love the game, DJ max! haha.. You know some people cannot use two side of the brain at the same time.. hee.. oops.. Met her best girlfriend, Hannah too! Interested friend she got.. Had a nice time with her again.. If only we can meet up everyday! I want to meet her everyday! To my baby, am seriously going to bite you again when i see you again.. hee.. 

20th June!

Boo! Today I don't know what to type, so CJ is going to tell you something.. Bronson told me this,

There are many untold secrets..

Secrets of love..

Secrets that are only shared between me and him..

He told me that he loves you alot..

Ever since you entered his life, he has changed..

You shined and guided him into the path of love..

Guided him with love and warmth from within you..

In return, he has decided to love you forever and ever..

Time is no longer a barrier in this love..

Thats all for today.. I cant reveal too much secrets to you in a day.. =) Just remember that he is already willing to love you with the rest of his life..

18 June 2008.. Today is a very special day!

Hee.. I am happy to announce that I have found my love! Miss Cute! Miss Patricia! Hee.. Sorry to all the heart broken girls out there, but please be happy for me! Hee..

I must say today was really my day! Everything turn out well.. Basketball selection, Soccer, being able to go home at 3 in the noon and most importantly, having the chance to meet My Patricia and asking her to be mine! Hee..

Went over to Patricia 's neighbourhood in the evening.. Got her a vitasoy, cause my poor girl was having gastric problem.. Kept it close to me cause its too cold for her to drink then, trying to make it warm or at least not so cold asap.. No knowing where she stay, I had this feeling that she will be at blk 23, so I went there and waited.. And guess what! I am right.. Somehow i just end up running into her or should i say, knowing where she will be.. Hee.. Then, she wanted to go get soya milk! I make the vitasoy appear out of no where! haha.. She must be surprise! haha..

Sat down with her and had a very long time at the void deck.. Cant really look into her eyes! So shy! haha.. Finally, I decided to gather all my courage and asked her to be my girlfriend.. hee.. Didn't know asking a girl to be yours can be so tough! haha.. Teasing me all the way! haha.. but when she start to tease i know she is mine le! hee.. I believe being shy was never really seen to many of you, my friends.. haha.. But seriously, that was once of the most shy moment in my life!

hee.. But i am still glad fate gave me the chance to meet her today, to me 18 june is a very special day.. her birthday is 8 and mine is on the 28.. So if we can make 18 a very special day, the whole month of june will be special! hee.. Thanks for who ever is out there, making such a day possible for me..

Hugs and Misses to you my dear Patricia!

Bronson

hmm.. webcam fun!

Didn't know webcam with her can be so fun! Haha.. For the benefit of all, this is how cute she is! Envy!?! Haha.. She is so like a kid.. Ultra cute!! Haha.. Heehee..

How i wish tomorrow i will be able go out with her! My very very last day of rest, My freedom! But I got to understanding.. Her granny is more important! Hate it when i do something against what i want.. But ya, family is always more important.. Remember that, to all..

Hmm.. Wrote a letter for her.. hoping to give it to her before i return to my restless camp.. But look like the possibility of seeing one another is very low, so am gonna type it in here..

It had been a very special and wonderful week with you..
Am glad i took the seven days rest..
If i didn't I won't be able to have met you in person..
And i won't have know that you are much more cuter in person..
Getting to know more about you was a blessing..
Too bad, everything has its ending..

So before i end it, I must say..
These 7 days are like the colours of a rainbow..
Every day is different..
But most of us has forgotten what makes it beautiful..
Its you..
The rain and sunshine..
Without you, there won't be any rainbow..
Without you, my seven days will be like any other days..
So really got to thank you for bringing rain and sunshine..

Bronson

hmm.. I think i am not connecting well..

Guess what I played basketball today! Cant believed it.. The last time I played was like months ago.. I have been telling myself that basketball was my life and passion.. But little of me is motivated to go out there and play some ball.. If it wasn't for her, i don't think I would have played basketball today! Thanks for letting me meet this very special girl..


This was our meeting place.. That's what i thought! Haha.. Was totally unclear of her directions.. So i just went with my feelings.. Somehow I was right.. Wonder if its fate or pure chance..

I remember earlier in the week when we went to the IT fair.. We decided to meet at the control station of city hall.. But we ended up taking the same train.. I skipped a train.. Having this feeling that she will be on the next one.. I chose a carriage with my feelings.. I looked around and there she was.. Though not the same door, but its the same carriage.. Another time was going to support her, we told each other if we see each other at boon lay then we will go together.. And there she is.. I seems to know where she will be and where she will be appearing..

I was never a random person.. Most of my friends labelled me as a planner.. So when all these happen its so out of my norm..

Though we have been seeing each other lately, I just can't build the connection.. Partially because i am rather shy around her and afraid my actions will be negatively to her in some way or another.. You know, so much of you want to be the most perfect when you with the person you like.. But, by doing so, you aren't yourself.. Am rather silly right? worrying so much! haha..

hmm.. Wondering was her feeling towards me.. hmm.. Thinking too much again.. haha..

Bronson

Someone special has entered..

Am rather happy for the past few days.. having the feeling of first love.. you know, things like butterfly in your tummy.. Excitement and anticipation when going to meet the special one.. Willing to spend hours just to support her quietly.. Been years since i had these kind of feelings.. Very nice and pure.. Further more, she is cute.. killer! haha.. Cant resist my liking for a cute thing like her.. Though its not a good thing to fall for someone looks.. But i just cant resist her.. But to be frank, it was her looks which attracted me to her in the first place.. She holds the image of my kinda girl.. Like i what i had said, its easy to fall for someone, but its hard to craft out a long lasting relationship.. Really hope she can be the one.. But, only time can tell.. Wish me luck and pls bless me.. 

My 2nd love..

Today, i am going to talk about my 2nd love.. A true love that end up bad.. she hates me lots..


My 2nd love is the one whom brought me out of my darkness.. I spend a great deal of time dealing with my first break up.. My 2nd love was the one whom brought me the light and showed me the way out.. I remember that very day.. That day i was working at a music production studio.. Working on some editing project.. A call came.. Seeking a place to stay till late.. It was her.. My 2nd love.. Then she got a major issue with a guy she love.. I knew that she is not feeling alright so I brought her up to the roof top.. Beautiful day to be with a beautiful girl.. That was when i realise that i had miss out on a special girl whom was always infront of me.. She was mature and her willingness to sacrifice for love made me like her.. I started to ask her out.. everything went well in the beginning.. But when we really got together.. Everything started to change..

From her, I understand that no happy how perfect both of you may seem when both were dating.. But, when it really come to a relationship, everything is different again.. This was one of the many reasons why i chose to be single.. I do not wish to hurt anyone in the end.. To my 2nd love, I am sorry that we are in the situation we are now.. I know i have done a lot of things to hurt you.. If you need to hate me, do it..

2nd entry, about love..

Am still trapped by love.. So much of me wants to be free again.. But so much is still not ready too.. So let me talk about love.. The 2 most important love in my life yet..

My First Love.. Met this wonderful girl online in Msn chat room when I was about 15 and she was 14.. One day fine day, i decided to ask her out for a movie.. My very first movie with a girl.. To be frank, it was my first date.. (Everything I type in here is totally true.. Even if you happen to read it.. You may not know some of the details.. cause i have never told you..) Recently, I went back to where i used to stay.. I took the very path, I walk to meet you for that very movie.. Crossing the bridge with so much anticipation.. Walking the path to the station with blury image of how you may look like.. I even remember lying to my beloved mother that I will be going to the library instead of saying that I will be meeting a girl online.. haha.. Took the train alone with so much excitment, cause its my first time meeting you, my first time meeting a girl online.. Further more, its my very first time going to west mall.. and ever since, i have fell in love with that shopping mall.. Once reaching our meeting point, i started my search engine and noticed this little girl standing at the corner, wearing blue.. I will never forget the feeling you gave me.. Though i have never seen you, even your picture, I knew that very girl was you.. My shy nature prevented me from going over.. I waited at another corner, watching and hoping that the girl i was going to meet was you.. We has an agreement that if we didnt not meet up with each other at the station, we will meet up later at the ticketing area.. You started to make your way up there, I followed closely.. Sticking close to you up the escalator was funny.. Finally, i borrowed up all the couraged i can find within me and asked you, Are you wp? You smiled and said yes.. As for our first movie, I would that it was a horrible choice, cause i do not even remember much about it.. haha.. All i can remember was me, starting a pop corn fight.. little did i expect a return from a cute little girl.. I think thats when I started to fall for you.. After the 'horrible' movie about popcorns, we went to the arcade.. She mentioned that she was feeling cold.. So i brought out a oversized sweater from my bad and passed it to her.. it was a sweet action but hell broke loose after that! haha.. She wore the oversized sweater over her.. haha.. looking so cute but on the hand, retarded!! haha.. Unintentionally, i raised my voice at her.. haha.. She was in shock for a moment, then she quickly took off the sweater and wrapped it round her.. The sweater is still with me till today.. I only wear it a few times when i am sick and feeling cold.. Seeing it always remind me of that day.. Wearing it, make me feel safe and secure, as though as she is hugging me..

That was our very first date.. Am I am glad that wasnt the last..

To be written and continued on another day..

My first entry.. lets talk about friendship..

I had never thought that some day like today, i will type an entry so disappointing..

I remember we all started off when we were sec 3.. TW was seated beside me and Rick was somewhere at the corner of the class.. WJ wasn't really into the group then.. Maybe i should say that he wasnt really clicking with us at all.. Feel like more of a free lance activity friend rather than a buddy.. And now, he has totally drifted off the group..

Rick is coming back from Taiwan, he was attached there to serve the nation as a capable driver.. Had always felt that he is the link to our brotherhood.. I do not know he has the ability or the magic, but he is just able to keep everyone together.. Although, he was only gone for 6 months.. A lot has changed, and i believed he can feel it too.. Everything started rather well after he left for Taiwan..

Amazingly, TW and I got to a stage where i really feel that he can be a rather good brother.. Didnt really like him in the past though, maybe i had never really tried hard enough to know him in the past.. We hanged out a lot when Rick wasn't around, almost every weekend in the beginning.. Then, i will ask him about Gin, how they are doing even though they have broke off.. Can really tell that he stills love Gin a lot then.. So i tried to bring them closed as friends, even though Gin totally disliked him then.. Now, I have failed to do so.. I never brought them closer, I only ended getting closer with Gin.. Gin is a amazing girl.. A totally hell break loose kinda friend.. Super 'ON'.. Being a close with with your best buddy ex, will definitely create a huge distance and gap between the brotherhood.. The thing about my bud, TW, he 'love' to keep almost everything that he is upset or whatever to himself.. Locking himself up, can't let me read his mind at all.. further more, i can see the jealousy he brings with him when Gin and i hang out.. I remember once, I decided to hold a camping night, so as to hope that i will be able to bring their relationship to a friendship kinda level.. Since Gin and me were free, we decided to meet up earlier to do some shopping for the camp.. Once TW knows about it, jealousy was picked up from him.. I totally understand how he will feel.. But to come and think of it as we are brothers/Budz and if he still carry that jealousy with him, I really has nothing much to say.. Somehow, it links me with the issue of trust..

There are a lot of things we know, but there are so much restirctions to resolving an issue.. Especially when it comes to human relationship between three people whom has quite an important part to play in each others lives..

Really hope that you can come back faster.. Work your magic and bring this Budz together again.. Feeling such a failure to be unable to keep such a friendship which has lasted for many years alive for just 6 months..